When i say "ME"... what do I really mean....

So as a reply to a Blogger Friend’s post I would want to list down a few things about me even though not sure about how many people would be interested to know me but yeah, this has to be done… This one especially goes to u – Blunt Edges….

Well… Me is gonna write down in one go about myself to bring the honesty in the blog….



1. When I really like a song I just listen to it endless times – on ipod, phone, comp … while working, writing, sitting idle, getting ready… all the time… till I hear a new song which I oh-so-totally adore…
2. I like to write about what’s on my mind. And sometimes I feel I write better when m sad or heartbroken or lonely.. .weird… or I guess when m happy m just too busy being happy to write anything …
3. When m angry I can get very mean. And my hate list has permanent membership.
4. I go out of my way to help or make some1 feel special and most of the times I regret. I guess this is what we call the baggage of expectations.
5. I get bored of people too easily. I need something exciting happening all the time.
6. When m happy I get into my child like mood – singing, crazy faces, crazy dance moves, funny hair do, weird talks …. All of that …. Quite an entertainment at that time.
7. I talk a lot. So whatever is on my mind is on my tongue, almost all the time. Sometimes its good. Keeps the other person on the same page. But it has its own cons ---- oopssssiieeeee….
8. I get this urge to do better. So even small little things inspire me like crazy. I start wondering how can I make things better for myself. I feel highly restless at that time.
9. I’m lazyyyyy….
10. I cant stand a dirty room. Not that I have OCD but I do like to sit in a fairly clean room. Sometimes out of laziness I don’t clean my stuff/room and I keep feeling restless and irritated and so I just don’t look at the dirty part of the room. And finally I clean… all smiles after that… its amazing how nice a clean room makes u feel… there is this sense of achievement. Like a huge task is done : )
11. I get addicted to things --- like FB or BB or Chatting or everyday cold coffee… and I come to know when I’m addicted. Then I myself lay this control. And I refrain from the addiction, like totally. Gives me a good feeling that I can focus …
12. I have this thing about maintaining an order for everything. I don’t believe in last minute plans or packing or getting ready last minute. Everything is pre-planned, atleast in my head.
13. I can never completely rely on someone. I have to and have to put my efforts. I just trust myself.
14. I get close to people very soon and the sooner I get close the earlier I fall flat, well quite a few times. And I somehow have crushes or liking for the BAD guys. Don’t know why… they are like magnets for me. And mind you I’m not happy about this … hmmppfffff…
15. I love gossiping. Everybody does but very few admit, like me. Me feels really *great* rite now. But healthy gossip and truthful opinions. Nothing made up or nothing that would tarnish some1’s image
16. I love shopping (very typical to a girl) but I can just keep on shopping. It keeps me stressfree. Its like a day well psent if I hav shopped.
17. I love smiling. I feel it’s the best way to express yourself. So I’m quite generous with it. And a smile can actually brighten up sme1’s day. So ya all those reading this should smile more often : )
18. I like to observe people. I can just sit for hours in a crowded place and observe.
19. I can talk to some friends for hours and still feel that I have more to say
20. I love talking to my dad. He is reserved sorta person and that’s why I like spending more time with him. I just cant see him sitting alone. Not that he minds it but I love spending some quality time with him. Ok so I love spending time with mom too.
21. I like to meet new people, then ask about their birthdays (and m damn good with remembering birthdays) and then I compare people of the same sun signs and see how they differ or are similar. I like to read my horoscope although I don’t believe one bit in it. I just feel that a good horoscope can really brighten your day.
22. I hate it when people say BUDDAY instead of birthday. It’s very irritating.
23. I’m tempted to correct people when they pronounce incorrectly. And I frankly don’t mind being corrected myself. I mean how else you would learn the right stuff…

There are many more things about me. Small. Big. Silly. Routine. All of that. But I just love being me. I don’t think I would wanna be any different. Its always nice to know that you changed over times as per how you thought it was right and then you stick by it all your life….. Nothing makes you more content than knowing that all that you ever did was what made you happy.

Smile cos it costs nothing but still has a high value. Love cos its free and spreads like wildfire. Care for someone cos it comes right back to you. And always Forgive but never Forget and that way your mistakes will never be repeated…..

When you were gone ….

When somebody leaves they just leave emptiness behind... Which fills up after a while but time takes its tests and makes sure you become stronger and feel every bit of emotion. Could not help but write it down cos this is something that helps me unwind, let out and leave some things behind . .

A beautiful verse that I had heard and that stayed on my mind “Jis manzil ka koi mukaam nahin hota, usse ek khubsoorat mod pe chhodd dena hi acha hai …. ”

I saw you in people, amongst strangers, between friends. Realized that you were gone.
I saw you in places where we had been together, never found you there anymore. Realized you were gone.
I felt you were around when I saw movies, saw that you were not sitting next to me. Realized you were gone.
I heard songs and felt you were singing them for me. I realized you were gone.
I applied my nail paint and picked my hands for you to see. I realized you were gone.
I sat on the terrace sipping my coffee, looked around and saw the view. I realized you were gone.
I heard my ringtone every time my cell rang and saw who was calling, it wasn’t you. I realized you were gone.
I saw someone smoking and holding that cigarette in his hand. I realized you were gone.
I saw a beach. I realized you were gone.
I bought a new dress. I realized you were gone.
I logged on FB, Gtalk … I realized you were gone.
I saw Smirnoff. I realized you were gone.

I realized that no matter what I saw I knew you won’t come back. It does not make anything easy for me, I’m not happy about any of this. But that’s how it is and life is not that simple.

You were the sand in my hand which slipped away just as quickly I tried to grip it. And then I realized you were gone, gone for good or bad I won’t know, but gone…

How i wish .......

How I Wish…………

I could decide for myself and then stick to it.
It didn’t matter who was getting hurt so long as I was right.
I walked some distances alone.
I did all the things that I didn’t do earlier to fit in other things.
I stayed close to my friends who stand by me even now.
I danced in rain when the time was right.
I had slept like a baby.
I never had fallen – in rat race, for promises, for temptations.
I could see all the wrong things and still keep my tears back.
I could finalize all the things I wanted to do.
I could talk freely about how I really felt.
I could still be a child and never grow up.
I could stand at the edge of life knowing falling over didn’t really matter – to me or anyone else.
I could sing ….. (cos I feel sometimes words may fail bt songs neva disappoint).
I could just leave everything and do what my heart loves best.
I didn’t lose people in life.
I could get a hug that I always craved for n it remained with me forever.
I could just laugh loudly telling the world “this moment m purely happy”.
Nobody controlled my life.
Tears would just forget my eyes.
Smile would always visit…
……..

N then I realized the wish list would just be like this – for me … for u … but for me it still is a dream, a dream I see every night which makes me think of my wish every morning …

Small things BIG difference!!

05 things that irritate me about people:



->> People who give very little respect to other’s feelings and are to the least bit empathetic. Such people live in a parallel universe, I guess, because they want respect but they just can’t seem to treat others in social manner. For eg: I have seen people do not respect certain kinds of jobs. I can keep a maid in the house. Get my house “cleaned” by her but I somehow can’t allow her to sit on the chair or eat in the same utensils (which she’ll of course wash) or I can make the waiters run around for my order but can’t seem to smile at him. I mean is it below dignity to appreciate other’s work??!!

->> Then there are people who don’t say THANK YOU, basic manners which we are taught in kindergarten. Or even those who won’t hold the door for you when they are walking through right in front of you. And I mean girls as well. So, you keep the door open for the next person walking in and the other person says thank you for the gesture. Is it so tough to understand??!!

->> Then there are people who think very highly of themselves. Okay so you have landed a high-flyer job and are ‘uncle scrooge-swimming in money’ but you still can’t go around throwing your attitude. People have the general tendency to stare and throw their weight around even when they don’t know the ‘saamne-waala’.. And sometimes people don’t even have the above high-flyer job or the money to swim in still they’ll throw truck loads of attitude.. DUH!!

->> One bit about guys here – Guys who can’t stop staring at a woman at the wrong place **even while talking** should get a grip. Please go and drool someplace else. I have a face and I like being talked eye to eye… So do you mind??!!!

->> I talk a lot and I generally like to tell about myself or my day or what happened before which was oh-so-funny and I don’t mind hanging out with just guys and I don’t mind cracking jokes with them and laughing out loud and I like occasional partying to unwind and I love dressing up. But that does not mean m trying to get attention or I probably smoke and dope and get drunk every night or I have had at least 10 boyfriends..!!! People should stop judging. I have realized that when we make initial opinions about some people we could be so wrong about them and we could actually like that person and be good friends. Give it a thought.

05 things I like about people or at least would like to see in people:




->> Smiles!! I love people who smile or laugh.. Tell them a joke and they give the correct kind of response. The bright smile makes your day and trust me everybody likes to be around such people.. It never hurts to smile at even strangers (of course you should not land up giving some naughty signals)!!

->> Helpful people. They are very few. At least in today’s world; very rare. I don’t mean that one should go out of their way to help someone but a small gesture of showing that you care about the other person and are willing to extend a hand is more than enough. It gives a sense of security to others..

->> I like it when people stay in touch. For months maybe you won’t find time to talk because of busy schedules but one day you just surprise a friend by giving a call and saying hi!! It’s the best feeling ever. I genuinely feel happy for the whole day and m assured that I have made some good friends along..

->> Somehow I like people who take time to get friendly and know the other person. Instant friendships never made sense to me. When people take initiative to know the other person, talk, laugh together, share memories, and listen to each other’s stories… basically be a part of someone’s life… Close friends can really make a difference in life!!

->> Its nice to be with a person who is caring. Not over caring – as in to the point of irritation. But someone who makes sure that you are fine, if u need anything, or holds your hand while crossing the road, or looks out for you if some danger is sensed, tells u when your hair seems funny and sets it for you… (and I mean a girl being caring for a girl as well and not just the boy-girl equation)


These are small little things in life. But they make a lot of difference and one realizes that likeability quotient sometimes is based on these minute details and not on superficial things. But then these are totally based on my opinion!!! You could have your irritating and happy moments.

I feel Young!!

Sometimes passing days make me realize that I’m growing old (especially when you hang out with people who are younger to you)!! But getting old is not in our hands but feeling old (or young) is definitely in our minds… So long as I’m feeling young – age cannot deter me …



I feel young… when I run to cross the road amidst heavy traffic and nasty stares and I feel like a child who has just learnt to be independent!

I feel young… when I apply crazy shades on my nails and then show it to everybody who crosses my way and with the same enthusiasm and a naughty smile!

I feel young… when I get all excited about small little things and when all these small joys give me the idea to celebrate.

I feel young… when I get thrilled about my birthday one month in advance and remind each friend every day about the approaching date!

I feel young… when opening presents still stirs me and gives me butterflies and when the anticipation just gets stronger!

I feel young… when going for a party gives me a rush and I start deciding what clothes to wear and what shoes will go with the clothes or plan to shop!!

I feel young… when I share small little details of my life with same amount of passion and animated expressions.

I feel young… when I laugh like crazzzyyyy not caring about who’s giving me dirty glances and the laugh just brightens my day!!

I feel young… when entering a biggg store gives me an adrenaline rush and I want to see everything around me, walk through for hours and still feel fresh and pumped up!

I feel young… when a trip to supermarket teases me!

I feel young… when I walk behind my mom following her from kitchen to bedroom telling her about how nice my day was!!

I feel young… when m dying to call up my dad to tell him about the most exciting news of the day and to hear him smile and say things like “m proud of u”!!

I feel young… cos I want to feel young every day. Every year that gets added is just a reason to celebrate cos my heart says “I just completed one more year of fun and I have so much more to ENJOY!!!”

Can’t waste my time feeling OLD!!!

5 types of ‘guys’ in a relationship ( pun intended all the way) :)

-- The shy guy (although I personally feel that no guy is shy)

Well he’s the one who will think twice before he would say something or he’s probably the one who has gotten into a relationship for the first time. Words like ‘I love u’ would also come out with great efforts. And simple things like holding hands in public would be a complete no no. But that’s only when the guy is new to this whole world of dating. So this could also be stated as the initial stage of relationship cycle and a type of guy too.

U’l love: Some girls would love this type of guy who would be cautious of his actions (less chances of hurting u) and would be by far the best at chivalry. He would be the one who’d send u those scented letters with sweet nothings which make the relationship oh-so-romantic. He won’t be the “flaunt-my-girl” kinds.

U’l run away: if u are the kind of girl (I’l have to probably write another blog for that) who loves to get the attention from her guy then this type could drive u crazy and before you know it the relationship wick is all burnt out.

-- The player (I didn’t copy the name from the new channel V show, which I must say is total crap)

Hmmmm a complete opposite to the shy species, he’s the smooth talker. Knows what to say when and with the right amount of attention. He’ll sweep you off your feet and you’ll probably not even realize it. He’ll text u endlessly, mail you constantly and make his presence felt at the right time of the day. He would send you all kinda flirtatious indications initially which definitely will be very subtle (cos this is the time he’s probably figuring out if the girl is worth the catch) and by the end of few days he’ll be almost on to u (ok I don’t mean that literally.. maybe.. wateva). This kinda guy has been in n out of relationships so he has great deal of knowledge about how to impress n wen to exit.

U’l Love: some girls like to be swept off their feet so this kinda guy is good when u r looking for fun. No long term complications. He will spend on u, take you places and buy you gifts.. in most cases (nothing is 100% u c) he would have the looks. So lots of girls won mind bein on his hit-list.

U’l run away: Any smart girl would know where things are headed. So if u have lil benefit and more of heart break then m sure u’ll choose to let this guy slide by.

-- The best friend

He’s more of a best friend than a lover actually. He’ll be patient and best of all – a very good listener. U’ll probably run to him in ur most trying times. Girls usually confess to girls only. But he’s the kinda guy u would spill the beans to. Maybe even bitch about your other girl friends. And since most guys don’t let out secrets he can be ur confidante.

U’ll love: every girl would love to have that kinda guy around. Who listens to her stories and gives advices. He’ll be great to have the** long** conversations with.

U’ll run away: if girls really need to have such long conversations and decide on something then girls would rather do that in a pajama party. This one would tend to be more on emotional side. Don’t know how many girls would take this kinda relationship on longer routes.

-- The ‘all-time-there’ guy

He’s the kind of boy fren who is there with u all the time. If physically not possible virtually toh pakka hai. He’ll call u every hour to find out where u are and with whom and what are you eating and what plans next and this and that… the status report needs to be submitted quite frequently. He’l always take good care of you and for that he’l need to be around you or keep calling you so that he’s convinced u are safe and sound (or maybe to keep an eye on u – I mean u neva know.. these cud be out-of-insecurity kinda tactics).

U’ll love: if ur family does not care about u and ur whereabouts then m sure u’ll love this guy. He’l pamper you and his endless calls would make u feel wanted. The scoops of attention would be fabtastic and every bit of it will probably make ur other girl frens very J.

U’ll run away: he’s more like a known stalker (that’s what I feel) and he is the haunting character more than a boy fren. So anyone who is independent and loves her personal space mite not be able to respond to the over board *caring* attitude (m being polite). In a few days (maybe months) she’ll jus say ‘scoot… shooshhh … awayyy – who are u? ‘ ….

-- The somewhr-in-between guy ( I cud not come up with the correct word)

Ahhhh!!! He’s the *best catch* of a lifetime. He’s got the looks (maybe not very handsome but definitely worth a second look). He’s smart but not like ‘the player’. He pampers but never over does it. He’l care for you but give you your space and would expect that u also leave him alone at times. He’ll take you out and introduce u to his friends but not show u off. He’ll pay your bills but won mind if u pay sometimes. He’ll not make a big issue out of everything in life.

U’ll love: well u’ll love everything about him. Ofcourse!!! U’l b crazy not to.

U’ll run away: IF U ARE MAD!!!!

The last kind maybe is a very rare species or is on the verge of being extinct. God makes them on his/her vacations and that’s why they turn out to be this good. If relationship with him does not turn out well then I will totally blame the girl. Lol…

PS: not related to my blog in any way but I came up with this one and wanted to post it here:



“Text msg, wall posts n tweets have unfortunately resulted in unanticipated demise of scented letters.. tsk tsk ”

Jinxed..!!!

S: Third row from the screen… U want it??

Me: Eeeks NO ways.. Anotha movie??

S: ok m cool. Which one??

Me: Not the himesh movie for sure. Lets watch Amitabh B

S: Yaa very cute movie. Very funny. Only last part is senti.

Me: u’ve seen it????

S: Yaa…

Me: then again??? U’ve seen al the nice options..

S: I don’t mind. It’s a nice movie. Can watch it again.

Me: Ok. Wait I’l get my laptop. Hmmmmm….. 3rd row from the screen, aarrghhhh!!!
Lets call H and ask. Get on con call. CALL NOW…

S dialing me on hold waiting waiting
Ahhh finally

H: wat plans?

Me n S: 5 o’clock Amitabh movie??? OR Ranbir movie??

H: Hey I’v heard the ranbir movie is crap. Don’t watch it even if u get paid…

Me: there goes the option. Wait I’l check the Amitabh movie option…
Ooooppppssss!!! It says “TICKETS SOLD OUT!! Select another movie”
What crappp….. nehow the movie was for 220.. lol…

S: now what???

H: lets go for coffee…

Me: (As usual) So faaaarrrrr??? Grrrrrr
(nobody cares)

H: yaaa… 6 o’clock???

S: yaaa m ok…

Me: I’m not…..

S and H: 6 o’clock then it is.

S: m goin.. c ya..

Me: Bye H … the call wil cut, con call u c… (sad)

All: bye bye bye

Movie plans after 2 months. And almost every weekend this happens.. arrghhhh… Crap…
Which song next??? – pieces of me (*Humming*)