A stupid is what a stupid does...

I had heard abt the movie Forest Gump many times, maybe more than i can even remember.. I wondered what made it so special n liked by all...

N by all standards, I watched it very late, that constant reminder of it being a good movie didn't quite encourage me cos I thot, wat can be so good abt sme movie that has a weird name like forest gump... well i pretty much ate my words wen i sat down, with lotsa motivation, and watched the movie ... i have seen lotsa movies.. sme were entertaining, sme were stupid, sme were jus meant to be watched and forgotten and sme were to be remembered and talked about and forest gump definitely fell in2 that category... this movie compelled me to write abt it, i jus felt so touched by forest's simplicity, his strength of character, his honest and unconditional love for everyone and his willingness to live the moment and nt care abt wat his destiny was supposed to be... and that is pretty much wat we all don't have... or atleas i'd like to say that for myself... we r so driven by the desire of or wanting of smething everytime, we r materialistically driven and in the wake of that we tend to 4get that we all r born to die so no matter wat all 'great' things we mite do we all r going to land up in the same plc... and so even if i strive to be better than sme1 i jus land up wasting my time being smething i mite not really wan to be...

One thing abt the movie i like is the fact that forest never gives ne thought to wat others have to say abt him.. nothing affected him, all he cared abt was wat he wanted to do even if it meant running for 3 yrs n sme days n 16 hrs(i remember sme facts atleast), and he very clearly confessed that he ran for nothing in particular( i love the way he says 'particularly' wit an accent)..He loved one girl all his life maybe knowing that she would never love him back but that did not deter him from wat he felt.. Passion is the word that i would most probably use as a synonym for him.. give al it has to life and consequently life gives u back everything... Life comes full circle (that i hav heard smewhr).. but very true...

N then there is a part where he is in Vietnam, he is in the middle of the war where he cud die ne moment but he still goes bak to find his fren to save him... and wen he is unable to that he still remembers to keep the promise that he made to him, put all his savings into that and never regrets wat he has done... i mean how many of us really do that, i can't remember even once if i have been able to trust a person, forget trusting him/her blindly... so there is no ques of doing smethin for someone... its more of a give and take gesture, its more of a selfish world and I don't deny being very much part of it. and how i really feel sad abt it, i cant really have true frens or genuine people, or even if i do have em i don't really know abt it, cos there is no test of sincerity that i knw of... cos unless i let em pass that test i have no way of believing that... i hate to admit all this but i have no choice...

M myself wondering as to why m i writing abt this movie, but somewhere (amidst crying of course) i realised that life is getting too complicated.. m running, u r running n maybe we all are, but the ques arises ... 4 what?????? I don't really have ans for that but one thing i knw that i want to run one day for smething i'd like to run for... or maybe "for no particular reason"... and that day I'd know that i have really lived my life and not somebody else's....

when smriti met Salsa

Before i take all the credit to joining a salsa class i'd want to thank my wonderful mom who always wans me to do fun stuff... m blessed, somehow :) But then this whole experience is fun, wit all the dance steps, meeting new people nd climbin the social ladder which i had lately lost amidst some unsuccessful instances...
My first stint with salsa went pretty well.. few basic steps and i was raring to go.. ohh kay nt so gr8 bt i'd like to pep myself a lill bit so who cares... m sure u (if smeone reads my blog at all) don't knw the S of salsa... sorry for being mean so a free class to u frm my side.
Dancing is surely a gud way to relax n unwind.. n rite b4 my exams its an awesome change, 2 hrs of total bliss.. and they end so fast :( Its interesting to learn the dance, make the guys ask u for a dance and then blame all wrong steps on them.. well salsa is abt the guy leadin the girl (the only chance he gets to do so ;)) so the gurl jus follows the movements. so if nething goes wrong then its surely the guys fault, i believe its always a guy's fault wen nethin goes wron be it salsa or life... m sure this wont go well wit the opposite species bt then m a feminist to an extent.. its gud for us gurls to feel that way.. u c...
so now that i hav learnt few things abt this dance, and hav more classes to go, i'l apply all of that in the next party, i dnt know wen tat wud happen bt plannin is a gud start nonetheless..

rite now i'd jus pick my books and get ready for some exams, i wonder if the examiner knws some salsa moves.. well u neva know.. ;)

Adios!!! :)

Nostalgic :)

Its said that school days are the golden yrs of one's life. Well after changing 7 schools I pretty much lost my golden yrs- no school frens with whom m still in touch with, no memories of my wonderful teachers... names lost amidst my bad memory... All i can maybe recall are my school names!!!

So what I call my best yrs are my coll days. Those 3 yrs were revolutionary in their own way. They turned my life 360 degrees. They made me all that I'm today! I would not trade those yrs for anything...
Those college kattas with hot cup of coffees, conversations revolving around guys, that foreva cribbing for a big campus, imitating professors, that coaxing of frens to bunk lectures, checking out the crushes on campus, rating people and wat not!!! Then the endless arguments with frens and voicing our opinions on everything, eagerly waiting for results and then planning for parties, sitting in the canteen for hrs at end, the bitching sessions..... Its like time flew right b4 my eyes!!!!!
My most memorable moments would have to be my getting in2 embarrassing situations- my dupatta getting stuck in my professor's button (this was the worst one), my falling down in front of endless people in college, somehow managing to wear same clothes as my frens, almost jumping on a guy to stop him from clickin pics wen he neva wanted me to b in ne of em!!!! i won wanna disclose much in this front here!!! (but i have to admit that in this area one of my fren steals the show completely) hahahaha

I'm not the serious kinda person so i pretty much laughed all my 3 yrs in college.. I neva tried to be a part of a group n so i have built lasting relations with some wonderful people.. Now when i look back i wonder if the time machine really exists.. cos given a chance i would want to re-live every moment again!!!

Since these yrs are etched on my mind I thot that they deserve a space on my blog.. I want them to be a part of me and everything that i associate myself with...

Thank u "college", u made me what I'm today and I could not think of a better "me, myself"... I'll always miss you sooooooo much!!!!!

This is funny!!!

Has it ever occurred to you as to why suddenly the networking sites are burgeoning.. Why suddenly we are hooking on to these sites in search of F.R.I.E.N.D.S????? When we are out there on streets we really don’t get past someone without throwing our ounces of attitude and there we are at home trying to build up such relations with people who we don’t even care exist… So, is the human mind, CONFUSED… I guess so.. And before it occurs to someone that m totally against entering this virtual make-u-feel-good world then I’ll just have to say that u are wrong and I’m myself on one such site, but still it never fails to amuse me all the more.. And believe me, u should also go ahead and become a part of this, not to be a part of the fake world but for sometime just laugh at the things that people do to attract attention…

So, as per what I have seen and analyzed I’ll just list out those few traits of what I call an online-networking-syndrome….

Ø U’ll find people making endless friends on these sites.. Can u imagine someone having 300, 400 or above 600 friends.. How can u possibly know so many people and remember all their stuff or even be friends with so many people at the same time.. amazes me to know that people have begun to hone skills that we b4 thot neva existed..

Ø Then u’ll find THEM giving out virtual hugs, kisses, cuddles blah blah and they never do the same when they actually meet on streets.. y??? that remains a big question till date.. I think virtual just remains that, VIRTUAL. And even worse, people do stuff like throw sheep at someone, spank someone, hit with a hammer or even head butt, bite, throw shade at.. and god knows what else.. for god’s sake this is a social networking site so lets just get social please..

Ø Then there is all time favourite, your profile picture.. Does it really matter that much.. half the responses that u get or half the conversations that u possibly make are about how good ur new profile pic luks n then thr is the need of endless replies of thank you’s… As in y do u need to change it al the time, u’l luk jus as good or maybe ugly as u do in ur earlier pic..

Ø And if that was not enough u have the option of videos and albums which define ur happiness in life.. Well u r happy isn’t that good enough... I think the need to announce it to the world and make that last attempt to make them feel more miserable about their already sad life is accomplished... Thanks a lot!!!

Ø Then my all time favourite- being a part of some community… damn that steals the show... it shouts loud from ur profile sayin- U know what I belong to the mocha or M Tv community and that makes me so happening LOSERS!!! What were u thinking before joining such a community, u know u r happening, ur friends know u r happening so y do u need to tell the inconsequential people online that u r happening… u know what, this makes u all the more loserly and non-happening so pls stop doing this…

Well, even m part of one such site but I think that some people go ovaboard with this networkin bit... Let ur friends know u and remember u and not b part of profiles whr someone has to add u jus so u don feel bad or jus so their friend circle increases.. It’s a place where u keep in touch with those who u don wanna lose touch with n this is the best way to do so... So happy networking…

I want to be something!!!

There are times when we want to be someone else!! All of us at some point of time definitely feel that way and i wud be lying to myself if i said no... I do envy a lot of people, their qualities or something else and i do try to soak as much as i can... but there is a positive side to this and at the same time a very negative approach too.. I personally would absorb things that make me more better person in my own eyes, once i accept myself the way i'm or the things that i'm doing then i don't think beyond that... but for some it jus becomes a reason to do things that are more "KEWL" or an opportunity to make friends who they think are even worth beyond 5 mins of conversation...

Thats the reason we see people fallin pray to alcohol or smoking or still worse things which i dont think are worth mentioning also... Personally m not against smokin or drinkin, its more about personal choice but if its done just to be a rebel or look cool in the eyes of others who r themselves worthless or in the name of so called stress and depression then I would say dude what were u thinking????

These mite sound like a lot of gyan to people but we are amongst very few fortunate ones who are left alone to decide our path and plans.. we have that backin from family and friends and the worst happens when we misuse our opportunities...
Looking beyond oneself and beyond one's own needs is a must, once we can do that we have won almost half the battle... This universe is inter related and if we don't contribute our bit to it then be rest assured that we lose out on our share at the same time, it comes full circle.. I believe in leading life my way, and i choose to lead it intelligently... I make my own decisions so better make them quickly cos time is running out!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NADIR!!!

LETS just start with a welcome speech 4 myself, since no1 else is going to do that for me i need to take the step :) I have entered the blogger's KATTA so to speak and it took me so long... I think I denied myself the basic fundamental right of expression till now! Kiddiinnggg!!!

Then lets just say that sense prevailed and I landed here, thanks to someone who told me how to go about it!! This is that space on virtual world that I'm strictly prohibited to enter, well no prizes for guessing that, by my mom... But I made better sense of it and said to myself, mom's were meant to say this or else they won't be MOMS, rite!!!!

Y did i put it as my second post??? Well lets just say that after starting on an emotional note I wanted to post something more light hearted or else I would be left alone on this planet BLOG!! :)
This new medium of expression has come to confuse me all the more. Why do we blog??? To show(off) my talent of writing to absolute strangers? Or to create yet another feel-good factor 4 myself? Or maybe try my desperate last stint at impressing those who I may never see in my whole life???? And to be very honest and outright, we all somewhere or the other come for such reasons, denial is the best escape though!!! But i decided to let it just be the way i feel about it, so I came here to make my presence felt in this whole new world and let myself be a part of the sadist pleasure of a sort... I don't know how many will agree there but as i say, who cares!!!
No offense to all those serious bloggers out there cos this is still a platform to speak and share our opinions and so lets just keep it at that only... So here's one to the whole-hearted efforts of blogomaniacs!!! Cheers!!!!

DISCLAIMER
Now that I'm also a part of the blogosphere I shall write my opinions and views to the maximum proximity of truth... And anything written by me shall be taken as my personal views only (sans any fiction).. Any resemblance to else's thoughts may well be treated as purely co-incidental.....

HAPPY BLOGGING :)

self being!!

Sometimes in life v wonder y v need sme1 to reassure us all the time tat they r wit us, behind us and followin us throughout... My major weakness comes out yet agn in open.. The art of detaching oneself from other's grip.. i have been denied this eternal power n i feel so trapped... i lie down here today amidst the thoughts of insanity, maybe i see things with purity or maybe i look 4 good things around me n i find nothing but the defiance. m i at fault or is there too little good to dig for.. well i think I'll go 4 the second one.. not once not twice but zillion times i wud look 4 that thing i want to see.. m a person of strong beliefs and few demands and if that is understood i don't think m a mystery anymore..

I see the light
I see u standing right there
m scared to close my eyes
something i won't dare
U sit with me, U talk to me
I share with u all my dreams
Everything seems jus so right
our joy, pain, laughter n fun
compels me to not let u out of my sight.....

But somewhere my instinct lets me down
U seemed so different
Yet i still feel all alone!!
I let u be a part of me
I let u in2 my world
But o friend u never would understand!!!!
But this girl will rise again
cause in my heart i carry the faith
that after a long summer, there is that hope of rain!!!